This post is going to be dedicated to my future wife, So when we look back I can show her something I wrote for her before I ever even have met her.
You were put into my life for a reason, And Obviously you are gorgeous, haha. I love you so much, and I’m excited to spend the rest of my life with you. If we stay faithful to God, and live for him and him alone, We’ll stay faithful to not only him, but ourselves. I hope we have a ton of babies, and Live in the perfect home where we can settle down and live our lives. I’ve been picturing this time of my life for months now. I hope how I picture it now, is going to be how it really is like. You’re as cute as a button
Lately, I’ve been noticing my surroundings. Through the internet, through hangs, and just being around people I’m familiar with. I try to get along with everyone, I don’t hate anyone, I dislike people. that’s besides the point. Christianity is based on the teachings of Jesus. And Jesus is love. Yet so many Christians have so much hate in there heart, and they do things to hurt people. Jesus would never have sued a person over having coffee spilt on him, Jesus would never honk his horn because someone Is taking a few seconds too long to go. I’m not saying I don’t do these things, Because I honestly do. I’m not perfect, and neither is any other human being on this earth. But how are we supposed to spread love if we don’t act it. smiles only go so far, I notice that at work. I bag groceries and I try to smile and treat people kindly and love them. Not because it’s my job to do so, but because it’s what I’m here to do. So many people in this world are hurt, and broken. And we sit on our butts and do nothing about it. Saying hi to a random person could change their day, Can actually make them feel like they are worth something. So many people feel worthless, feel as if they have no meaning to be here. We all have a place here, otherwise God wouldn’t have put us here. we’re here to love, love, love, love and love. So many christians are so judgemental towards other christians and nonchristians alike. I get it a lot because I dress differently then the average Joe. Same with music, People automatically say the music I listen to is in no way glorifying God because it’s heavy and screaming. A lot of people say christians can cuss, I personally have no problem with cussing. I don’t cuss myself, but if you’re cussing in a negative manner and bringing someone down and saying hurtful things, yes cussing is going against God. but if you’re just saying “damn I look good” or whatever, you’re not hurting anyone by that. I have so many thoughts going through my head lately about this stuff. And I just I thought I’d poor some out. If you feel I’m wrong, then feel that way. If you think God is a myth, and not real. Well look around at the beauty of everything from the oceans, to one single piece of sand. If you still don’t believe me I would hope you would respect my beliefs as well I respect yours. I’m not gonna bring down what you believe in, only show you what I believe in.
A few months ago, I would have said my life was horrible. I was going through a lot of stuff. Wasn’t doing to great in school, Me and my girlfriend of almost 2 years had split apart. I basically had no friends It felt like, I just felt lonely. I’ve been a christian practically my whole life. I was born and raised going to church every Sunday, So I mean God has always been a part of my life. Through those rough times I didn’t pray, and put my troubles and pain on him. I kept them to myself, Which I completely regret doing..Things would have been so much better so much sooner if I would have let all of them off my chest. lately, I’ve been praying about life in general and just talking to him about what I have to do with my life. I’ve realized the people who are in my life at the moment are some of the greatest people I’ve ever had. I’m seriously so blessed. I Don’t feel as lonely anymore, I feel like people actually want me to hangout and talk to them. That dark phase of my life was no fun, and I would never wish that upon anyone because It was very sad and gloom. I love my life as we speak, I’m blessed. I have more then I could ever ask for. God is amazing, the way he turns pain, and hurt into joy, and happiness. I shall forever be greatful for him.
People come into our lives for reasons, And they leave for reasons. Whether the reasons are good or bad, it’s still hard to watch them leave. I think God puts people in our lives to shape our own lives. Just aswell as he takes people out of our lives, To bring new people and new insight to our lives. It’s absolutely beautiful the way he shapes us. No one is looking forward to a new youth pastor. I’m sure the youth group Ryan is going to is saying the same thing. But they’ll realize how awesome he truly is, and he will bring new insight to their lives and help shine Christ on all the people where he’s going. just like our new youth pastor we’ll be getting. He may not be our “Ryan” but he’ll still be there to bring insight to us in ways maybe ryan couldn’t have. Everything happens for a reason and I know for a fact Jesus loves us and he’ll take care of us through the hard times. With every hardship comes peace. We’ll find peace. We need to turn all of the hard times to God and see what he does with our lives from here on out. I will really Miss Ryan & Aaryn but I know God has HUGE plans for them and they will be doing exactly what christ calls them to do. They are great examples to all of us at awaken. And We will never forget them. ps- awaken is family because we don’t eat people ;)